[ The entire time he was silent his eyes were on Ed's lips, his mind feeling more like a battleground than anything else. Now wasn't the time for this. Even stopping to do what he'd just done was, as had been pointed out, something that should have waited. God help him, he so desperately wanted to kiss the man that was only inches away from him.

But it wouldn't mean anything like this. If it didn't mean anything then there was no point, and if there was no point he shouldn't want it so bad. He had to get further away from that place and clear his mind. He had to do what he'd promised himself he would do. Neither of them could afford the cost of his greed for immediate satisfaction. His eyes shot back up to Ed's when he spoke. ]

No, it's fine now. [ That was too quick of an answer. ] It's just that you're right. My actions were unnecessary. I was being too fussy. It would be more pertinent if I got you home before doing that sort of thing. Are you ready to move again? We shouldn't be too far. [ If he didn't keep talking he would probably spend all of his time thinking about how shameful it was that he'd almost put himself first when Ed was so clearly suffering. Where they'd been wasn't an excuse. He couldn't have forgiven himself if he'd gone through with it. ]